3 Nov 2010
Just so we always have it around
3 Nov 2010
You always make me feel so incredibly loved. I never think about any of those things… All I ever think about is when I can see you again, and how peaceful it feels to have you smiling at me. But you see everything, you make me feel so special, and I can’t tell you how important that is to me. I miss you so much… I never like thinking about leaving you, and it doesn’t hit me until the last second how much I don’t want to go… Having you hold me in bed, crying quietly because of how much you love and miss me is maybe the most heartbreaking thing I have ever felt. I wish I never had to leave your side. You wait patiently all day for me to come home and take care of me so much, just letting me melt in your arms is all I could ever ask for. There is not a short enough time that I can leave you, and it hurts so much. I love you Lacey… I love you so much. I want to live inside your love cocoon and never come out.We can spend our days making dolls awkwardly dance and wearing costumes and dancing in our undies and killing zombies and taking pictures and cuddle cuddle cuddle.
Every beat of my heart for you,
Your Taylor
3 Nov 2010
hello my beautiful man. are you sleeping? are you restless? are you dreaming?
god, do i just love your brain. and your soul. and your giant heart. it’s bigger than big. i just can’t even believe it. i’m baffled by it constantly. it’s like when we are told that space is infinite and we don’t even understand how heavy that is because we just can’t wrap our heads around something so huge. it’s like that.
i am in awe of how you can sit on my floor at almost midnight… having woken up at 6 am, having worked hard at school until 6 pm, then coming home and having kissed and hugged and entertained me until this point… and how you can cry for me. you are crying because i miss you, and you still feel like you have to give. you just give and give and give and you don’t complain. you don’t even think about it. it doesn’t even occur to you how much you do and have done. you’re just good. and it literally takes my breath away. my heart quickens with my breathing and i’m just still but dizzy staring at your teary eyes. your beautiful brown eyes that i could stare into for days…
you deserve this sleep more than anyone else i know.
goodmorning taylor.
i love you.
your lacey
